I have come to the part of my high school career where I must decide what path I'm going to take for the next four years of my life. I'm applying to colleges. Although I still have several months to decide between the ones that (hopefully) accept me, it's still a decision that's been on my mind a lot right now.
A couple weeks ago I got the opportunity to visit a state college that is about five hours away from my home. It was a great college, in a rural setting with beautiful buildings and a good academic program. It also has its drawbacks: it really is in the middle of nowhere -- no Wal-Mart or fast food or anything, and the dorms aren't that great. One bathroom/shower per 10 students. Count it -- TEN.
Tomorrow I get to visit a college a little bit closer to home. It's near a large city. It has tunnels connecting its buildings for easy winter walking. It has a stellar academic program and study abroad opportunities. I don't know the state of it's restroom facilities, but I'm sure they're good :) Of course, as with any private university, it costs a fortune.
And then there is a college out of state that I likely won't be visiting. It's a beautiful, Christian college with just about everything you could ask for. Nice campus (from the pics), the admissions counselors are very helpful, and the Christian values are exactly what I believe. No legalism, no passiveness. But it's so far away.
And I wonder, how do I decide? How do I figure it out? Will I ever know enough -- will God shout it from the clouds -- so that I can sign my life away for four years with confidence? It isn't just four years, either. It sets the projection for the rest of my life, almost. It affects who I marry, what job I get, where I live, what church I attend. It matters.
And yet, maybe it doesn't. Because God said go and do, and glorify Me there. Will I screw up my entire life by attending the wrong college? Not if I glorify God there. Not if He is more important than a Bachelor's degree or an insignia on a sweatshirt. I am just a teenage girl, scared about the great, black void of the future. Wondering what it will hold. What it will do to me, where it will take me.
But if I glorify God there, if I glorify Him here, does it matter? If I make choices with the wisdom I have been given, if I pray and pray, if I let God take care of the future -- because He's been there already --then maybe it fails to matter. It is but a dot on a globe swallowed up by the immensity of the Omnipresent One. And He ought to be enough.
So true & encouraging! Thanks, Aylin :)
ReplyDeleteAhem, I think you forgot the biggest thing about Cedarville- they have free ice cream! :)
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